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Firstly, I would like to wish all of you a Happy Valentines Day. 

Things have been foggy as ever. I never understand what I'm doing cause I'm realizing that I'm getting myself into the same 'ol problems over and over again. Some might ask why the hell am I doing so? It's all in my nature I guess. A single strand of hope might drive some people to pursuit whatever they want in life. That was how I lived my life previously. Solely based on hope and wishing for the best to happen. Hope is all gone in my life. Hope just brought nothing but sadness. But I guess life is not filled with dandelions. 

I spent time with this young girl yesterday evening. Whenever I talk to her, I tend to read her and try my best to understand what she is truly thinking. She's a really lucky girl to have alot of guys chasing her but her struggle to find the perfect one is still on-going. I'm not sure if I'm suppose to post this online but I'm going to keep her name anonymous. Hope she don't mind. She's a nice girl to be with. She is so laid back and her goofy-ness makes her complete. So, why change right? 

I've realized that I'm not that good looking (Just realized?!?!?! Hahaa). Girls will judge you on what you really look like. Even if you clean yourself, shave and such, if you're not good looking, fuck off. "The appearance doesn't matter." Yeah right~. The appearance always matter to you people. That cliché phrase which girls often use makes me kinda sick. Cheating yourself and what not. Giving unattractive guys a glimmer of hope that something might happen. I'm not saying that this applies to all girls but so far, the majority of the girls I've met are like that. 

To end this on a sweeter note, I really hope you will open up to me real soon cause I'm really interested in what you are thinking. From what I've read, you might not be ready to move on with that phase of your life but I'm willing to wait 'til you are ready.