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Should I react to everything impulse-ly? Without thinking. Just do it. After thinking back I would be a huge dick if I do. Things that I would do, very cheebye.

I'm too emotional? Yes, I would prefer to merajuk than to be pissed and cuss everyone around me. Who would you want to deal with more? A pissed of Fadzli who you never seen before cause I always merajuk all this while? or the merajuk Fadzli? You guys know why I decide to merajuk all this while? I feel that it's a best way to show that you're disappointed at something.

Well, it seems that it's not appreciated. Fine.

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Days passed now. I'm now feeling like crap as always. But heck, as long as everyone around me is happy right? Blargh. I guess It's better to not even think about it.

I think I'm going to concentrate more on my gaming obsession. Aww fuck, who am I kidding?! I NEED HER!!! FUCK!!!