Tuesday, September 27, 2011

It's Been Awhile...

It's been awhile since I've posted anything on here.

Many things have happened lately. Done with National Service. Currently unemployed right now. I know no one is reading this right now, so I guess I can be truthful here. Life's been very hard for me now, financially and socially. Friends come and go but I'm still here clinging to everything that is cling-able.

Been lying to my close friends lately, saying that I'm currently working with my mom lately but as the matter of fact, I've been unemployed for 4 months now. I guess I was ashamed while everyone else out there is living a happy life. Parents have been pestering me about when am I gonna get a job. I'm blessed to have such understanding and patient parents. I honestly been taking them for granted. I do feel very bad that 'til now I've still not tried to get a job.

Socially, still a wreck.

Time for me to buck up I guess. Can't keep on living this lie. I will make something out of myself like it or not. The fear of rejection will still be there. But until when I can hold on much longer?Rejection is part of the process but I will still try though.

Please God, I hope you will guide me through this tough journey of mine. I will try my best. Hope to update here more often. God Speed.

Sunday, March 07, 2010

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Should I react to everything impulse-ly? Without thinking. Just do it. After thinking back I would be a huge dick if I do. Things that I would do, very cheebye.

I'm too emotional? Yes, I would prefer to merajuk than to be pissed and cuss everyone around me. Who would you want to deal with more? A pissed of Fadzli who you never seen before cause I always merajuk all this while? or the merajuk Fadzli? You guys know why I decide to merajuk all this while? I feel that it's a best way to show that you're disappointed at something.

Well, it seems that it's not appreciated. Fine.