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I've been shivering and having cold sweat since this morning. I don't actually know what is happening to me but I hope I'll be fine soon. I can't even get up to get my phone. Going to see the doctor? I don't think so. Think of it, you think I want to skip school? I knew that the files are in my locker. I just couldn't get up. I will like loose balance and topple over if I did. My mum asked me to just stay in bed. With a bottle of 1.5 litres, my laptop, a loaf of bread and a can of tuna beside me, I lay in bed. I really felt bad for not being in school. If I could come, I would.

Tomorrow, I will go back to school in the morning and get those files in my locker. I will finish all the work that is suppose to be done. Yes, I'm at fault. I accept it.

I have not been having sufficient sleep this week. Thanks to it, my mood have been completely down. So, I apologize if lately I've been rather quiet or dead. 

Okay, as you should know me, in my every post, I will usually add some mushy stuffs. So, here you go. I'm trying to mend my way right now. I need to change things back to the way it should be. Last term, school have been a drag and coming to school to face her is really difficult. Now, it's a new term and I'm trying my best to live life to it's fullest. 

At times, I tend to relive those times in the past. It hurts more now. Sometimes, I feel as though I'm not wanted around. And at times, I feel 'used'. Well these are just thoughts you see. I won't take it personally though and I hope you will not take it personally too. I just wants you to know what I'm feeling. That's all.

Note: [ * ] updated at 6.14 p.m.