Damn, Not Again...

I need rest. So, I skipped school today. I know it's not a great idea to do so but I have no other choice. This will be the last day. I have to and will set my priorities straight.

It's just that if no one does it, who will?! I mean, I must take charge and do it. If I just follow like the rest and remain idle, I will still get the blame. So, might as well, I try my best to avoid the blame and do something. But help is rather hard to help. I don't blame them for not helping. Yeah, I know, they are busy and stuff. Hell, I am too. You just don't disappear and never cme back. You guys know that there is the camp coming. Yeah, that I can handle slowly. Did you guys know that last minute, our club is involved with the National Day Celebration in school too? Do I need to look for you guys and ask for help in order to get help? Yeah, call this bitching and whining. I don't care.

My accounts is dropping(never good at it anyway...). The rest are improving. But the teachers are busting my ass on my accounts. WTF!? I did improve on two subjects. I just suck at one. They are like blaming the presidency thingy. Not only them, even some of my close friends said it too. That made me fucking pissed. I know that they meant well. I tried my best to balance both. Come o think of it, If I don't have this President shit, I would be rotting at home. Doing absolutely (vodka) nothing. Thanks to this shit, I spend my idle time doing something productive.

Since some people are already hating me due to the above content, might as well I continue and make more people hate me. So, basically, I hate how Asilah treat me. What did I fucking do? She just look at me in a certian manner that is hurtful. I don't actually know is it intentional or not but what the heck. I know, we have a so-called "history" together. Yeah, I did persuaded you to leave him. My decision is still the same. He don't deserve your love. I still believe that what he said is unforgivable. That's it.

I still feel awkward around Nazirah. Everything is not all fine and dandy just yet.

Hmm, where do I start about Ayin? So far, Nothing is wrong just yet. But I can feel the displeasurement.Left, right, center. Gorgeous looking, well-off mens are going for you. But is that all what you want? Or do you want closure? You can avoid this topic by stating that you don't need all this right now. The the topic will remain and linger around here. I don't have the looks. The money. All I can do is to show you. To be there whenever you need me. Yeah, I know. "but we've just met and we barely know each other". Yeah, true enough. I tried almost everything to get to know you more but all you gave me was a cold shoulder and continue talking about SBSC. I know it is a hint for me to back off. Seriously, It's sad to see this happen without even seeing you giving me a chance to prove myself. It's okay then. Life still goes on.

I think everything is out of my chest.

Once again, this post is not a personal attack on any names or situations mentioned above.

Peace...