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Valentines Day is Near...

Valentines Day is near. I guess I'm going to spend Valentines Day alone. This will be like my last post for a while.


Whats Up???

Life have been difficult for me. I really regretted telling her. Not because she treated differently, just that I am the one that is starting to treat her differently and I hate that.

Not that I have a choice to love you or not. I feel that I am losing everything. I don't need your sympathy. I just like to write this on my blog. I just need to release it and this is the only way to release it.

I felt like shit the whole day. I can't help but to feel that way. Many things are running through my mind. I am emotionally and physically tired.

Why am I living my life this way? Am I really given a choice to change it? I just can't control my emotions right now. I can't eat, I can't sleep and I can't do anything right.

I really need to get away from everything and find myself. My thoughts are cluttered right now. I got to set my priorities straight.

I need to change. It's hard for me to face her right now. We are always surrounded by others. I need an alone time with her. Chatting is just not enough. You are so social and thats hard for me. I don't want to control who you are. I know that we can never be together and it's a hard pill to swallow. I'm not ready to forget about you. Arh damn life sucks...

I know this is totally lame post. I agree.