Sunspots

That was deep...

Last night, had a deep conversation with her. Through MSN of course. I really wish that I could tell everything to her in person though. It would have much more impact if I do so. But now, I feel that she know completely and truly how I feel about her. I really hope that she understand how I feel and what I have gone through this past few weeks.

I still don't expect much to happen. Her feelings toward him will grow even more after this and I'm greatful for that[I think...]. Exactly what I said in my previous posts, If I can't be with her, all I can do is be there for her. It's all in her hands now.

Our life is totally fucked. Haha. All we can do is to have someone to turn to, whenever I am sad, pissed or even happy, I know that I can turn to you and I need you to know that you can turn to me whenever you need someone to talk to. Kinda remind me of the Umbrella song. Haha.

She made me cry last night. Amazing. I never felt that sad before. Life now have a whole new reason, a whole new beginning.

Yesterday night was truly an emotional roller coaster ride. At times, we were sad. At times, we were laughing. I had a really great time last night.

Be strong and have faith. We will get through this, together.