Sunspots

It was okay...

So far, Life have been treating me okay. Nothing much have actually happened.

The day...

Today is not a bad day. Just got a little scolding from Miss Tan for entering the class extremely late. What the fuck, I don't quite care.

After school, went to go and eat. Was planning to eat alone. Suddenly, Jim and friends decided to tag along. Went to KFC and eat. After that, I went home and now I'm online doing nothing.

Hmm...

Whenever I write about this, I feel extremely guilty. I feel that I'm embarrassing her but this is the only way I can express my true feelings for her. I really didn't mean to love you. Seriously, It just surfaces and I feel so powerless to stop it. It's not that I want to stop it, It's just that by stopping it, that is the morally right thing to do. Friends? Is it really enough for me? I should not worry about this crap anymore. Then, why the hell am I worrying about this crap then?! I really feel so weak and powerless. Can I at least try to win her heart? Can she even let me try or give me a chance. I have nothing to offer except for my true feelings for her. I have to say that he is a better man than I am. I just need a chance to prove myself worthy. Worthy of your heart. Is it too much of a sacrifice? If I fail, our friendship will never be the same. If I succeed, only God knows how I will truly feel.

Someone told me before, "Fadzli, don't play with fire." I truly understand what you are trying to say. Life is all about taking risks. I may get burnt and there will be scars that remind me of what I've been through. But all I can say is that, If she give me a chance to prove myself, I will try my best. If I still fail, I will feel like shit, but very satisfied.

Random Video...


"Pocketful of Sunshine" by Natasha Bedingfield

I love this song. Her voice, live, is so nice. Say whatever you like Effendi!!!
HAHAHA!!!