Sunspots

Changes... Again...

I really fucking hate what is happening now. First it was "them". Now all of you? Well, most of you larh.

I just don't know what to do now. Either I'm really slow or damn you guys are fast. I just don't know. Can you people stop changing. What's up with the holidays.

Everytime, after the holidays, Someone or something will change and I hate that. Why? Everything was already great before the school close.

I really hope it's just me. I really don't want this to go away. I was really enjoying myself.

ITE Bishan used to be my sweet escape believe it or not.

But now Nazirah, Suzanna, Asrinah and Sakina is busy with their Bridge Leader stuff. Shaik is busy with his work. Asilah with her outside things to do.

That leaves me with Maszuin and Arif.

Both I can't relate that well with.

Well guys, I know that the world does not revolve around me. You guys may not like what I just said above, but what the hell, I type what I feel. No more hiding.

I guess it is inevitable. Sooner or later, It will happen. I just didn't expect it was this soon.


She is someone who I can trust...

Sometimes, talking to Nazirah is also difficult nowadays. We use to talk to each other alot. Talk crap, talk cock, deepest darkest secret and we even talk about how to save the trees. But now, It's kinda hard. She is always busy. Sometimes, I feel very guilty whenever I sms her. Am-I-disturbing-her thought always pop up in my brain. I really don't want to burden people with my problems. But sometimes, I just need someone to talk to. And I know that I can turn to her for help.

Haiz... Oh well...