Sunspots

Can the act go on...


Can I continue to act happy and okay even though I know that I'm not. Sick of it. Sick of the feeling. I want to make her happy. But when I think about it, she can be happy if I stayed away. When I think about it more, I'm sick and tired of it. Giving way. Sacrifice. Some people ask me to just move on and forget about it. I will then.


Hopeless. That is what I feel right now. Is knowing that she is going to be alright soon helps? Is knowing that they are going to be closer helps? I'm just plainly selfish.


And to "the passerby", sincerity will bring nothing. Unless you're good-looking. Deny all you want but I feel that looks plays a vital role in a relationship. That's why I need to work with what I have. Looks just ain't one of them.